Everything is hectic. I wonder why. Even though i gave my nephew a bit of spank but i don't make them cry so hard. It's tough. They are too pampered and by the time their parent realize it, it's a bit too late. But i believe they still could change them if they are stern enough. I wonder if my lesson is appropriate or not. Tch. I'm lost for words at the moment. Now i need to redo my budget since i don't want to leave my novels behind. I thought my sister will pay for my over weight stuff. Ugh. So not cool. It's like she's getting rid of me once and for all. Now i'm speechless. Calculating and just more. Until then, my forever Daisy.
Thursday, July 28, 2011
This song i dedicate to myself. Bwahahahaha. I have some issue with myself and my self confidence is a downhill. So when i hear this song, you could say that it fits me the most. It's what i have been feeling the entire time. The song is in Korean and you should know by now that i'm not Korean. I just happen to love KPOP. The song just got release today and it is sung by a group call 2NE1. One of my favourite girl group all time and since they are in the same company with BIG BANG. YG Family. Oh yeah!!! The song is call UGLY. Enjoy. :)
The Translation :
Sometimes i wish i know how i end up sleeping every night. I have often wondered what made me sleep. Was it due to fatigue or was it the words that i said to myself. I can never remember how i end up sleeping. Every time i wake up, i have always ask the same thing to myself the moment i open my eyes. You might be thinking that i should do research about it but since i'm way to lazy to do any research at the moment and i like to question myself every morning about how i end up sleeping every night, i'll just put that aside. It's a habit without me knowing. Asking myself every morning the same question and i found that i like it that way. Weird right? It's not like i can get the answer every time i ask myself. It's a weird habit. I know it is. But i know i'm not the only person who have some weird habit. It's only a matter of admitting and making it public. I'm not a movie star. Bwahahaha.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Although i'm excited to go back home but somehow last night i had this sad feeling creeping up upon me. I think i'm going to miss the life that i led here. I had money every month although i had to do back breaking job but i feel fun at the same time. Not the money but the rewards that i had. The appreciation and the hobby that no one will bother about. I admit sometimes i feel lonely without anyone to talk to but i realize that's who i am. Someone who don't really talk a lot and always busy with my own head. Minding my own business. I think i got used to this situation. That's why i feel a little bit sad. This is very devastating. I have to stop sighing. Otherwise i'll be old before my time. Probably there's more than meet the eye when it comes to life. It's the things that i can't control. Although i took part in making decision but who knows what comes after that. Will i be rewinding or forwarding? What i mean by that is simply how i describe what i have gone through so far. There's a past left untended and there's a past that needed to go forward. Just like that.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
It has been decided that i'm going back end of this week which is on 31st of July. Although i'm going to miss my nephews but i need to do what i got to do. I believe they will be fine without me. That is what i want to believe.
-----The next day----
Yup, it's confirm i'm going back this Sunday. Sunday, 31st of July 2011. My work ends this week and this month. For the whole 7 months that i'm here, it has been a great challenge dealing with the attitude, my nephews, enduring my patience, being a considerate person and lastly, just being a babysitter. I could set up my own nursery if i want to. But this only open to my nephews or niece. Bwahahahaha. The way i'm dealing with kids might be misunderstood. You know how parents nowadays. Being manipulate by their own child. That is the main reason i'm only dealing with my niece and nephews.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Congratulation, a celebration. Yay!!! And the new born baby finally enter the world. It's my niece. Sorry no picture at the moment. Not that i've upload anything beside the Malacca trip but one day i will upload a picture of my niece and nephews. But i'm more excited of my niece since i can't wait to take care of her. YAY!!! It's a girl, finally. I wonder how she look like. I haven't see her either cause i'm here and she's there. Ugh. My sister said according to my brother-in-law, she's chubby. I think every baby is chubby. But i'm more curious how she look like. I can't wait to go home. My nephew must have felt deserted if they understand the whole thing. I still love my nephew but lets share the love to my niece as well. I can't believe i'm already an aunt. I'm loving it. Loving it. Loving it so much. YAY. Congratulation, a celebration. I wonder if i have enough money to buy presents for my niece. Hurmmm... I'm loving it. Until then Daisy. My forever Daisy. I'm an aunt for the third time. YAY!!!
Friday, July 22, 2011
I'm hungry. Anyone care to buy Fish and Chips for me? Suddenly i'm craving for Fish and Chips. Now where am i suppose to buy that. Hurmmm... If only i'm craving for something simple like i always do like pizza or burger. Now suddenly this??? Where am i suppose to get it in the middle of the night or ask my sister to buy it for me. Aigoo. Why??? I feel like shouting. Daisy, lets have a date. Pick me up at my sister's place and we'll go on a date. I'm being mad due to my craving. Help me by then. Fish and Chips, Fish and Chips. Come to me....
I'm hungry no matter how much i eat. I still want Fish and Chips to satisfy me. No, i'm not pregnant. I must be nuts and out of my mind. Shame on you to be thinking that way. It's just that part of woman's thing. Where they crave for something although they're not pregnant. They want it so badly that they never feel full after eating a lot of things. Yes, there are certain female who would share my craving and they are some who don't feel a thing. Is it due my age? Ugh, i'm ageing am i? I need to calm myself first. Otherwise i might hurt people when i'm in this state. Until then, my forever Daisy
I've ate and i've drink. Duh, i think that is the most common thing that people do all day long when they have to spend their entire time at home. I could drive but there's no car. I could take the public transport but how am i suppose to carry my two 'kids'. This is one tough job. Endurance and tolerance. It's all about that and why do i have to understand other people. Now i'm swallowing the reality of my life like taking my medicine. It's a tough one. I do wonder how did i become so patience after going through all of this. As far as i could remember, i am the bad tempered type of person who can easily get tick off even when people pinch me just for fun. Now how did i end up being like this type of person. Consideration and all, they give me a headache. I nearly puke thinking too hard. What an intro. Right Daisy?
Thursday, July 21, 2011
It's funny. Most people wonders if i'm married or not. While some just decided to call me Mrs. to be safe because everywhere i go i have a kid holding onto me. It's like i'm playing with people's life although i didn't mean to. Some could not help but asking am i married or not because i look too young who just finish SPM. Ahak!!! It's not that i'm praising myself over the fact that they call me young who just finish my SPM but for anyone out there must have felt happy to be call young when you're actually not even near that age. Specifically, i'm still young but not someone who just got out of my secondary school. Bwahahahaha. I can't help it to have a kid holding onto me since my job right now is babysitting my sister's son. So, if they look like me and mistook me as their mother, forgive me for that. I don't know what to say. I guess i really do look like someone who should have a kid by now. Wait, i'm contradicting myself about being young and have a kid at the same time. I wish i could explain but i can't. A complicated fact by the complicated explanation but with only simple meaning. I'm making things worse. Hush, D.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
How you're doing? You must be surprise with my recent post. All of sudden i'm selling cookies and snack online. Without any announcement or plans i post up the website name, while i wait for orders to come by. Not sure if you're surprise by it or not. I can explain although i'm still surprise by all of this. In fact, my blurriness has come to surface. Not that i could not ask, the person that was suppose to give me the answer seems to be my bro-in-law. Knowing him, it's hard to communicate. It's like i'm talking to a wall. For some reasons, i felt that way. Can't help it when all i hear mumblings from his mouth. Anyway, forget that. The website that i posted, my bro-in-law who made it all happen. He's the one find the supplier and such. He do it all. Until that one day, he ask me to fold brochure and stamp my name with the email address along with my PHONE NUMBER!!! Arghhh!!! All of sudden i became one of his agent to promote all of that. And that when it all begins. I'm promoting and use my charm towards the people i know. It was like a joyful moment for me. I even begin giving out the brochure and put it on people's car. Thinking that it was awkward for the first time but as it went by, i had the coolest memory of all. Now i'm still promoting it from time to time but i'm focusing on one group only because i know it has a potential from market view. Now i'm speaking all the business related thing. Unbelievable and a bless at the same time. I'm so happy!!!
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, July 10, 2011
This might be the last day i could update my blog before i'll be gone again. Not gone as in going anywhere but gone without a news to tell and a place to go. Wonder that means. Anyway, i am totally happy and practically still smiling to my ears due to certain reasons. Finally and just finally i get to spend RM100 worth buying novels using my own money. All of my patience and my endurance with everything is like totally paid off. And to make things ever so happy, it was not a bluff after all. When i was back in secondary school, i boast to myself that i would buy RM100 worth of novels using my own money. I boast to my friends about that and i could tell they don't buy it. I don't buy it either. But here i am, now buying 6 novels with RM100 budget. I am so happy. Although a bit of off budget (RM1) but i am purely satisfy. It's like i'm back to my old self and like bringing back my innocence about life. No more the killing and all sorts. Just me and my pure self. A blessing. Praise The Almighty Allah for giving me the opportunity to achieve this dream of mine. I am happy with just that. But it wasn't just that, i have new sandals as well. I wish i could take a picture of the things that brought me so much happiness in the world. This is actually for my upcoming birthday present. The only time i could pampered myself before another endurance that i have to face. No matter how hard life gets through you, just be patience and strive for your own happiness. You are surely not alone. Until then my Forever Daisy.
Friday, July 8, 2011
It has been weeks since my last post. I am not that busy or anything. I have told you before that the computer that i use have broke down and my brother-in-law didn't have the time to fix it. So i was weeks without the internet and such. Not to mention the story that i have wrote, it's all gone. This might be a short post after a long hiatus but so far my life has been a bit more interesting than before. I'm happy although facing a bit trouble here and there but i'm very satisfied with the road that i have taken. Sometimes, we can't always go to far when we follow our hearts. Anyway, i'll be sure to update more about the life that i'm leading now when i have the opportunity to with the laptop or computer. In the mean time, know that i'm always happy. Forever be, my Daisy. :)