It is quite impossible for me to write a short post. It's unlike me to do that kind of thing. Even when i write an essay during exam, i do have the habit of straying off the topic given. So much for the unplanned and planned.
I wonder where has she gone too. I can't call her at all. I don't even know where i can find her. I hope she will be okay and i really do hope she will call me back. I'm kind of worried. Usually we message each other when we have the time but ever since i got sick and problems occurred i haven't got the time to contact her at all. Now i'm feeling better i can't even reach her. I am so worried. I hope she's fine. I really do hope she will call me. Daisy, do send out the word to her. I can't reach her at all. I hope she's feeling alright and forgive me for unable to be there when she needed me. Until then, my forever Daisy.
I over-strained my right arm. My precious right arm cause obviously i'm right handed. DUH. Well it was due to getting myself in a comfortable position whenever i'm online. The table and the chair is really uncomfortable and i end up laying on my stomach while weighing myself upon this arm of mine. There's a reason why people create chairs and a comfortable table. Ugh. The darn moment where i have to blame myself for my own stupidity.
Yup, i'm right. I'm having the darn cough again. Not so cool but at least i get to eat porridge. Unfortunately it was cooked by me. So, the feeling of getting well is not cool. That happens a lot ever since i started all of this. I'm not whining but i just want to be pampered once in a while. Escaping the ear from all the crying and shouting and releasing myself from the chore that i have done so far. Speaking about that, the house is dirty. The floor. That's what i meant. Ever since i've been feeling unwell, i too tired to sweep the floor and keep it clean. Not to mention, i have another one to take care off. My dad is here as well. So that is why I feel more weaker. I'm not complaining of him being here. Actually, i'm a bit glad as well but i don't really know how to take of my dad. I rarely talked to him and making food for him is quite a burden for me. He's a food critique, that's one thing and the other thing is his diet need to be consistent since he's not in good health like he used to be. So that is why i'm having headache trying to think what should i cook for him and what is good for him. My taste of food is differ from him. I have a limited recipe in my head and the kitchen is not inspiring and what's more i have a different taste. I'm trying to solve this problem and become a versatile cooker from now on. That is my resolution.
My throat feeling itchy. I get the meaning. *Sigh. The air here is not that clean and which is probably the reason why i easily get all this sort of threatening illness. Not life threatening. Just the normal one. Or is it the food? But it must be the air. I'm pretty sensitive to that. The next time i'm coming here, i have to bring all medicine. A reminder which i tend to forget anyway. But i hope everyone are doing just fine, perfectly healthy.
I promise you the entire updates right? It might been very brief and such but it happens for weeks now. So, i will only write the things that i do remember. Cause that might give a very good impact or impression in my head.
I don't really know what i'm thinking right now. About what decision that i wish to share and wouldn't share. I don't know which one is better. Come to think of it, i have been thinking the same thing over and over again. But as usual i am a coward, still fears for the consequences and the regret that i would have to face each and every time i decide that one decision for a long time. I really don't know. From my point of view, the day that i started out blogging there's not much different in my life. I still answers the frequent question that pops into my head the same way like i had done back then. Call me a coward but i think i have enough regrets in my life. I lie when i said i had nothing to be regret of but as for now, i have so much that i want to do all over again, start all over again but the problem is, will i still be making the same mistake again? I don't know.
Now how long have i been gone? I didn't plan to write anything during my holiday. But since some people are wondering where i have been and such, i decided to update myself. Only bits. I can only tell you more after i got back from my so-called-holiday. I would see it that way.
How complicated do you want me to be? I could be nice, mean and just everything you could think of. There's side of me that you know and there's side of me that might confuse you. I'm trying to live my life in a simple way but as usual, we don't always get what we want. So i might be complicated to deal with. Not to mention i am a woman in case you're wondering why. :)