I'm quite hurt Daisy. I thought i have mended my heart well enough to the point that i thought that i'll be strong again. But then tonight proves my beliefs to be wrong. It really hurt. I'm tired of getting up again and end up falling this much again. I don't know where i can lean my head upon to. Even music itself just made my heart bleed even worse.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Yes, i have been everywhere. Not really everywhere. Just here and there seeing things that i needed for my future backup plan. I must be out of my mind to have a backup plan everywhere i go. The marriage is not even confirm nor even a boyfriend. Pity me. Pathetic i mean. It's so sad. I do want to get married. Who says i don't but then i'm having problem of finding the one who can lead me or bend me. Don't know what that means. Run...
Saturday, July 24, 2010
I'm getting quite these days. Probably because i don't have much news myself. It's nearly my birthday. Another 2 more weeks then i'll be getting old. It's not like i'm whining about my age and etc but i just don't look forward to it. Maybe i'll spend it all alone this year. Without any gifts and so on. I think, maybe i should get myself a gift. How pathetic i can be. It's sad but i just hope it will be a happy ending.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
I'm not working anymore. Not because i was fired or anything but my parent need my help and wanted me to stay home. Besides that, i have the need to go back to Sarawak for there is something that i miss. Of course it's because i miss my cat. I need to cool myself down first. I don't want to waste my energy getting mad and so on. Even now, i'm upset with a friend of mine who forgot to think how sensitive i can get if being teased over and over again. I can accept it once and twice but when she keep repeating the same thing, from the way i see it she just want to boast that she is so perfect to the point that she has to point out my wrongs even in conversation. She point out the accent that i am using. For me, it's quite rude for making it a joke. I won't tell you who's the person in charge but if she's reading it, please stop behaving so childish. Grow up for your relationship sake. You don't know the real pain out there or even been to that point. Trust me cause you will regret it if you behave like that.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I have some time off this week. I think probably because i finish what i was told to do last week. Right now i'm just waiting for the replies from the company that i have been struggling upon. Life is sure worth it. I guess you could really tell that i'm happy right now. You want to know why? Of course it's about money. I don't have anything else inside my head except for money. I gave up putting hopes on finding husband and etc then focus on the things that i wanted to do, especially you Daisy. I received my payment today. Actually i did receive it before but it was vanished the moment i give it to my mom and my sister. I like it when they're happy. Maybe it was the real reason why i had money upon my eye. I want to do something for my mom and my dad. Even though my sisters have their own way of handling it and keep telling me how to save it and so on, i too, have my own way on doing things. Although i might not show it right now, sooner or later i still manage to go through it.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Daisy, i'm hungry. I haven't had my breakfast, lunch and my MILO. I'm hungry. Actually, this is lunchtime. I decided to write bits and bits about what happen before i went out for lunch. (already eat,bwahahahaha) Okay, here we go.
I'm busy updating the agreement this week. I'm like a debt collector asking every company to send in their company registration number along with the paper that need to be sign. So yes, i'm pretty busy doing the paperwork. I got tired of laptop recently to the point that i feel like i want to puke whenever i switched on the laptop. The side effect of working with delayed work and not enough staff. But at least i got money from it. That is the whole point. Bwahahahaha,, I'm starting to get evil. I guess that is all i could think of right now. I'll be signing off and please don't miss me Daisy. Until then.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
I know i keep on leaving a short detail on everything. I know i often say that i'm busy but it's the truth. You know i've been working and everything is chaotic. I'm so tired lately. The more i become grumpy because of tiredness and lack of sleep, the more i am convince that i am never going to work once i get married. I only work for pleasure and that's it. I wonder what i meant by that. Anyway, here's the detailed about the work that i'm doing.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
It has been a while. I'm in a war right now. No, it's not about my family and so on. We all pretend like nothing happen but hurting at the same time. So, it's funny how well we can act our role. Anyway, i did mention something about war. Well that i refer to all the phone calls that keep on ringing and now i'm way too sensitive with the ringing sound. It's annoying. I found peace and boredom at home, while at the office i found war and boredom at the same time. I guess, that's all i can say right now. I'm a bit busy but i'm starting to slack off. I need to be a hardworking so that i can earn money. Oh yeah. I received my paycheck yesterday. Thank you Allah for always being here for me. All i have to right now is PATIENCE.... Until then.