Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I think i'm happy enough to be the one who write and give out the title. Give out the conclusion in my own way and to just give everything that i know by far without causing any confusion. Well, that is from my point of view though. I do welcome some other point of view because as wide as the universe can get, that's the same wide as the opinion can get. It is just a matter on wanting to believe and that was it. Just now i got a lot of stuff going on my head and wanting to share about but just when i start writing out a good intro my niece woke up from her sleep and kind like distract me here and there. I know i'm planning to talk about my other blog but i need to end my intro in a good way. Instead i forgot about all the good ending itself. So, let's just move on to what i was about to share.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Again, another long hiatus from me. I can never keep my place in one spot or maybe i was probably too busy updating my other blog. And maybe i've been too busy keeping my head together. I don't know why i get easily distracted lately. So, it is kind of hard for me to tell something when there is something to talk about. Nevertheless, i will try to convey every message that i can.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Now life is not that bad. Besides getting myself praying for more patience, in the end i only wish for one thing. Forget about being married and have babies. I have enough of the crying and all that attitude. I realize i will never make a good mother when i am so wounded. I told myself not to carry it to the next generation but then it turns out to be a battle. Indeed it is. I would call it war among my inner me and that's when i realize and truly notice that i am so wounded to the point i forgot what it is having to raise a kid. Not my kid. I'm not even married. But i did told you that i'm babysitting my sister's kid and it really kind like knock me out. Marriage is not a simple thing to do and that includes having babies. There are times when my patience gets the best of me and i'm always scared what would happen cause it's really bad. The scar that i had is really bad to the point i'm about to lose my sanity. That's why i always seem to be more quiet when i had a feeling i would blast off. It is such a scary moment. Thankfully i can handle all of this myself cause that is what i do all day long. Mending the broken. I'm grateful having a way to work things out. Until then Daisy.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I know i promise you a lot of things. There is not much time that i had nor i have the will to write any post. No, i am not on heartbreak or whatsoever but things has been pretty lonely for me. Most of my friends have found their love one and got married including my exs. Bwahahaha. While i'm still on the term of running away from love but wanting to get married. Pretty weird right? I never know how my mind work sometimes. It's quiet adventurous i must say. Anyway, i'm not going into the past for now. Too tired to remember the bits  from the past. It can be rather boring since it is the same thing as in the future. Welcome to my life. As long i didn't mention i'm getting married then i must say my leg is bound to the ground. Although i dream of flying but we all know what happen when gravity makes its move. We landed with a painful thud on the ground. Those who dare and have their will written they might have chose the safer bet. Die before even starting to fly. Ngiahahaha. My goodness. It really is unladylike of me to think of that way. Not that i am. And certainly not. 

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm trying to save my money right now and it feels like forever. It's a torture all the more. I have so many plans in my head and i just can't get it straight. It felt like everything that i had in my head is priority. It's one of the flaw that i'm trying to work on. Now my head hurt just by thinking and such. And this broadband that i'm using is not helping at all. I feel like i want to curse someone for the slow line over here. Such technology made out so poorly. Seriously. !@&#&^$*@&$*$&&$*$#^$... Bla,bla,bla. 

Daisy, it has been a while since we last share each other news but do bear with me. Now that the line is slow and challenging my patience all the more, i feel like i'll come back to you the next day. Until then my Daisy. Always and forever, we'll meet again.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Oh well, i guess i'm not the only searching for pilot to be my husband. I might as well just forget about searching about someone to be my husband. Well, the last time i did said that i want to let my mom do all the things but now i guess my head is full with another adventure and another dream so i guess i am way too busy chasing after that dream. Yes, i know it would be lonely and all but i guess travelling would bring the fun in me. Right now, i'm considering a vacation. I want to go on a vacation. Oh yeah. With my friends only. I know i should share it with my family but then at the moment i just the need to get away once in a while. For once in my life i'm being a little bit selfish. Bwahahahaha.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Yes, it is a long hiatus indeed. I couldn't believe i've been gone for almost like forever. Now, i'm losing most of my viewer. It's a sad thing to notice my blog become so lonely. Even so, note that my other blog, Cherish is doing great or so i might think. I have to admit that this side of literature or art suits me the most. One like no other. I have been doing nothing but planning. Yes, you could say i like to wreck my brain a bit here and there and crash myself when i don't have the answer to my own ridiculous question. During that time, i really need someone whom i can talk to and to actually understand to whatever it is i am trying to say. Because sometimes when i get to excited on certain things i blurted out almost everything. That's why i always need someone whom i can really trust to be near me at that time. But when i do feel stressed out, i tend to ask question and by the time i finished asking  i got my own answer. And i still want to hear what the other person says. And that is not the worst part. The worst part is where their answer need to match my answer, the one that i kept inside my head. When it does match i won't troubled them more but when it turns out wrong i tend to be mean. Ngiahahaha. I sound like a Hitler when it comes to all that. Pretty scary somehow. Now why is i'm talking about this?