Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I found new love and even if it was short, i am thankful for it. It was only for a few weeks. To tell you the truth, i didn't accept him and try to make him go away. But as time pass by my lonely days are filled with him. That's when i decided to tell the truth. Before i fall deeply in love with him, i rather chased him away from my life. And it seem like all my nightmare is true. No one would ever wanted a person like me. I've been healing my heart preparing for this day and now i'm fine. That is all i can say. Until we meet again Daisy. My forever one.

P/S: Accept me for my past and my flaw. That is all i'm asking from a man.

Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Time seems to envy me wherever i go and whatever i do is mostly using my physical strength which is unexpectedly seems to be quite extraordinary. Probably due to long rest and jobless years. But i still have to remember that i am not that young anymore. Seriously, people still thought that i just finish my Form 5. Guys, i'm in my mid 20's already. Bear that in mind. 

It's a long hiatus and hell yeah i've been busy. Not only that most of my time is robbed by the job that i have now. And yes, it is tiring. Small salary but for the time being i am thankful that i got the job. It has been 2 months now and it has been that long since i last shared you my perspective of life and what changes. Some of it change and some is still the same. Things are a bit hard than usual. The more money that you earned the more headache that you get. So right now my issue is probably about budgeting my money and how i can save it so i'm able to buy myself an apartment or condo one of these days. Most would probably go for car first but i need to save a space for myself and my privacy so i needed my own apartment or condo at the very least. With that i can save my novels and get myself a new one. Bwahahahaha. Besides all of that, i am thankful that there's someone can control me and i listen. Although i did voice out my dissatisfaction and make the people around me hurt but all i want and needed are answers. I can never guess when will i die. So please, just tell me the reason behind it instead of wanting me to feel what you felt. I don't get it why people do that. 

Daisy, i wish i could share a few more because i have tonnes of things to share but this eye of mine begging me to stop. So i got to go. Until then my forever Daisy.

Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

It has been a long hiatus. I always start by explaining my disappearance. It's like i did it on purpose. There are times in life where you can't handle most of the stuff and you end up forgetting what you have enjoyed before because you are way too busy with other matters that needed your attention. Sometimes, it's a good to have a distraction but other times you start wishing for lots of things. I am not really sure what am i talking about but i know really well what message that i want to convey to other people.  To all who have been waiting for my poems and my art work or you can call it my next project please bear with me because my time is not the same like before. But i'm still writing be it on my book or my phone. Until then, my forever Daisy.

Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm still here. I have been busy and this time truly busy. I got myself a job and i'm happy the whole time. It is a very satisfying feeling and even my mom is feeling satisfied with it. I am so thankful to be jobless this whole time for i got to enjoy the things that i knew i would not be able to do. Now, i have all my head to my new job. This is a very satisfying moment and honestly, i'm loving my life. Although there's a teeny weeny bit of regret in the past but i am so thankful The Almighty Allah gave me the opportunity to fix myself and allow me to see another life in between, the meaning and almost everything. If i were to share this happiness, i have shared it with those who have been there for me, with me no matter how badly i treat them. They forgive me, accept me no matter what and which is why i am keeping this friendship with them no matter how far and how long of hiatus they have to bear with me. I am so thankful to have my loyal friends and my family behind me. All their love is enough for me. I need to rush now. Got to do some sells.... Until then my dear sweet Daisy. 

Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I know, i passed my birthday already. Now, i'm officially 24 years old. That's when my thinking seems to be bothering me all weeks. I thought a lot of stuff to the point it suffocates me. Yes, i did make new resolution but for now let it be a secret for me. When it comes to certain thing, i kept it shut for the whole time. I guess that's my side that people don't really know. I'm pretty busy for a moment. Until then, my forever Daisy.

P/S: I'll share more stories when i have the time. Love you

Forever Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Everything is hectic. I wonder why. Even though i gave my nephew a bit of spank but i don't make them cry so hard. It's tough. They are too pampered and by the time their parent realize it, it's a bit too late. But i believe they still could change them if they are stern enough. I wonder if my lesson is appropriate or not. Tch. I'm lost for words at the moment. Now i need to redo my budget since i don't want to leave my novels behind. I thought my sister will pay for my over weight stuff. Ugh. So not cool. It's like she's getting rid of me once and for all. Now i'm speechless. Calculating and just more. Until then, my forever Daisy.