It's kind of painful at the moment. Probably it's the rain. But my chest just feel hurt. The loneliness that i'm feeling, inhope it won't turn into envy. I do not want to envy their happiness but being 26 and still single, is not fun at all. I receive invitation to my friends wedding. All i could do is stare at it while asking myself when will i ever find him. The one who i belong to. I know i'm not trying hard enough. I just don't know where to find. My heart always lead me to certain places. A certain day, month when i know he's close my heart will lead me to him. But as i turn my head, i don't know where is he. Constantly, he would remind me when i decided not to pursue anymore but there he was in my dream and it lingers the next morning. I know i sound crazy telling you this but that's what i've been feeling. It confuse me but i want to believe it to be true. Hopeless romantic. But i know he's out there. We just can't find each other. Until then Daisy.