Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Lately i'm too outspoken and dare to say harsh things (the truth) consciously which kind like surprises me. I don't know where in the world i get my confident back in me and i just felt like i'm not timid around my friends any longer. Do you think i've grown up? I feel like i'm old with this new philosophy but i like it this way. It's not like i'm boasting saying i live a lot more longer than anyone does. What am i? Ice age to be alive around this time? I meant to say, i'm thankful with everything's around me. Now i know why you should be grateful with everything you have. Either if it's about food or the challenges that keeps on challenging your courage, your decision, your judgement and equals your life. Cherish it with everything you got and not to repeat the same mistake. I'm proud to be a Muslim for it gives me a lot to see, the beauty in just everything. And to be able to live as a Muslim, i'm really proud to be one for it helps me back to trace my own route even if i'm lost for a long time. My life map is based on what Allah The Almighty gave and Muhammad S.A.W has left for us. Although i feel like crying and giving up but i know i'm always love.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I am back from the holiday. I don't know if i should called it holiday. I was suppose to cool my head off, go somewhere that will heal my heart and think about myself only. But then my holiday ends up crying my heart out, making myself sick for crying too much and had a fight with my sister. I end up spilling everything out. They think i don't know a thing about my surrounding and being selfish as well as hotheaded. But what do they see what i see and what do they know what i know. And i did just that. Which probably the reason why i don't want to say anything because tears tend to flow non-stop and i'll regret it the next day when my head hurt as well as my eye as big as an egg. I wish i could tell you a lot of things but unfortunately, that is not going to happen today. Until then Daisy

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I am in a frump state. Although this ought to be my mid twenties but i dress just like an old woman which gave the impression i am old to other people. I hate to admit but seriously i happen to ignore how i look like when i was told i am in the verge of obesity. It's a bad thing. After knowing that, i started to ignore about my own fashion sense and just focus on the things that makes me happy. I guess, after knowing all of this, i think i need to change my lifestyles. Be fashionable and lose some weight. Getting myself a husband would be the last thing at the moment. No matter how much i would love to get married at this age but i have to forget about it at the moment since i am too bother about myself. My happiness, my health and mostly just about everything. Until then Daisy. Pray that i'll get to my ideal weight again.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I wonder how much pain that it takes to turn people into a heartless one. Although they seem so happy and enjoying their life here and there but i still couldn't believe that they are in that much pain to not feel happy when other people are celebrating grandiosely. Yet, this friend of mine couldn't bear to see or hear about all the happy news. I don't get it and i will never will because that's not how i see the world goes. Of course despite feeling pathetic and such but wouldn't it be great to wish others their happiness. I keep on thinking, probably the pain has overwhelm this friend of mine as she bottles up all of her problems. I know it is unhealthy to bottles up all of our problem to ourselves because i have been through that. In fact, i'm still doing that but sometimes when i can't bear to handle it any longer i do tend to blow up and it feels good after that. But this friend of mine, i know how sensitive her heart is and how fragile it could get but she keep on saying she's okay and immune with everything. Yeah right. This is how she ends up to be. I wish i could hold onto her and help her. But i think i was too late. There's a saying that says 'there is never too late for anything' i remember it from a manga that i used to read and salute so much as it teach me the way of life when i was in my downfall. And now, i have been doing that but this friend of mine is stubborn to the bone that i almost feels like i should strangle her to hold my hand so i could help her. I wonder if that sounds like helping or murdering. Well, wish me luck Daisy. As wild as you can be, that's how my heart tells you. Until then Daisy.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Salam Maal Hijrah. It's a new year in Islamic calendar and it's a blessing i'm still alive while trying to stay on this path despite for the temptation that has been going around. But i'm still trying to be a good Muslimah. I know i can't be perfect at the moment but i'm hoping that one day i'll be able to do so. I always pray for that. I'm not after money but i just want to a good Muslimah. That is all i ever want. That is why i need to tame my wild side at the moment. Who says that there are no sacrifice in this? Of course i need to stay low at the moment. Until i can control myself, that is when i allow my wild side to enjoy the fun things that i love to do. I'm only stopping for a moment. People would probably think i might be going back the old life. No, that is not what i meant when i said i stop all the wild side. I'm only saying unless i can control my wild side then i'll dare myself again after applying the Islamic way. That is what i meant. So that everything i do will turn into good deed. That is the only ticket and my repent. Until then Daisy

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Have i got myself into trouble lately? More likely have i been searching for a fight? I guess my boredom and my stubborn nature really help me a lot to know fun being single. And so, my ill nature does help me instead of giving me trouble all the time. But now, i'm a bit devastated knowing so many things happen around the net. Seriously, it all made me feeling sad and heart-broken when i lost my freaking thumb drive. Of all the things that i took care of, why must it be that precious thumb drive??? It has almost everything there. My entertainment!!! I just wish i could shoot myself in the head for losing that precious thumb drive. Talking about this suddenly sets my mood down. No, i can't do this yet. NOOOOOOOO!!!!

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,