Be my Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I am feeling all the heart breaks moment over and over again. I wonder when will i get used to this feeling. But i know i'll be alright and since no one realize how badly wounded i am that means a good thing. Hopefully i can manage all the mending process again. Until the my Daisy

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I hope my last post don't seem to sad or tragic. It's a sorry fate that i encountered and the one that i'm used to. I come to believe whenever i tend to get in a relationship i'm always scared this would happen. A breakup. It's a failure everytime i went my way to go for that. Now, i don't want to pursue it anymore. Somehow, deep in my heart i want it to be feel with love also. I think i'm going to cry. Not that i'm sad about the breakup and so on but i get emotionally distracted very easily nowadays. Probably because i cherish the word relationship so much and it doesn't have to be with a guy but i can relate it to friends and also family. Now that i'm watching One Piece again, i cry so hard and deliberately choose the sad episode. I can't cry normally so i used this 'medium' to help me cry and ease my heart. Well, this is not a long post. I don't want to bored you with my imbalance emotional state nor to confuse you. Until the Daisy.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

What is up? Bwahahahaha. Somehow that sounds funny. Anyway, it's rare of me updating my blog this fast. You know how i can be. Probably there's something interesting going on and i intended to share with the readers of Daisy. May i call all of you guys Daisy? I have done that for the last past posts without asking permission so why did i bother to ask now? Pfftt. Really, when my head start to get crazy it's kind of hard for me to get straight to the point. I just love the sound of the keyboard now. Is that what you call it? I can't seem to recall it a bit.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I think i'm happy enough to be the one who write and give out the title. Give out the conclusion in my own way and to just give everything that i know by far without causing any confusion. Well, that is from my point of view though. I do welcome some other point of view because as wide as the universe can get, that's the same wide as the opinion can get. It is just a matter on wanting to believe and that was it. Just now i got a lot of stuff going on my head and wanting to share about but just when i start writing out a good intro my niece woke up from her sleep and kind like distract me here and there. I know i'm planning to talk about my other blog but i need to end my intro in a good way. Instead i forgot about all the good ending itself. So, let's just move on to what i was about to share.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Again, another long hiatus from me. I can never keep my place in one spot or maybe i was probably too busy updating my other blog. And maybe i've been too busy keeping my head together. I don't know why i get easily distracted lately. So, it is kind of hard for me to tell something when there is something to talk about. Nevertheless, i will try to convey every message that i can.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Now life is not that bad. Besides getting myself praying for more patience, in the end i only wish for one thing. Forget about being married and have babies. I have enough of the crying and all that attitude. I realize i will never make a good mother when i am so wounded. I told myself not to carry it to the next generation but then it turns out to be a battle. Indeed it is. I would call it war among my inner me and that's when i realize and truly notice that i am so wounded to the point i forgot what it is having to raise a kid. Not my kid. I'm not even married. But i did told you that i'm babysitting my sister's kid and it really kind like knock me out. Marriage is not a simple thing to do and that includes having babies. There are times when my patience gets the best of me and i'm always scared what would happen cause it's really bad. The scar that i had is really bad to the point i'm about to lose my sanity. That's why i always seem to be more quiet when i had a feeling i would blast off. It is such a scary moment. Thankfully i can handle all of this myself cause that is what i do all day long. Mending the broken. I'm grateful having a way to work things out. Until then Daisy.

Be My Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I know i promise you a lot of things. There is not much time that i had nor i have the will to write any post. No, i am not on heartbreak or whatsoever but things has been pretty lonely for me. Most of my friends have found their love one and got married including my exs. Bwahahaha. While i'm still on the term of running away from love but wanting to get married. Pretty weird right? I never know how my mind work sometimes. It's quiet adventurous i must say. Anyway, i'm not going into the past for now. Too tired to remember the bits  from the past. It can be rather boring since it is the same thing as in the future. Welcome to my life. As long i didn't mention i'm getting married then i must say my leg is bound to the ground. Although i dream of flying but we all know what happen when gravity makes its move. We landed with a painful thud on the ground. Those who dare and have their will written they might have chose the safer bet. Die before even starting to fly. Ngiahahaha. My goodness. It really is unladylike of me to think of that way. Not that i am. And certainly not.