Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm trying my best in everything i do right now. That includes trying to keep you updated. Besides that, i'm trying my best to bake a cake today. I want to start practicing so i get the right method or maybe gain something from all this. I hope one day i can bake some from you although people will keep on asking me about you. I'm tired of answering it and that is the only reason i'm being mean. Forget about that.

Dear Daisy,

How long has it been now? I know i haven't update anything lately but i'm trying my hardest to do something that can make you proud. There have been question about you again Daisy. I don't know if i can answer it yet but i'm hoping one day i might even tell what Daisy really meant for me. Maybe you're just my imaginary friend that i created in my solitary world. I think having you will keep me alive and know that i am not alone. But i know you are here somewhere. Anyway Daisy, i have great update that i want to share with you. It seems this time the whole waiting thing make me feel worth it. 

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Surprise to hear from me again aren't you? Well let's just assume it that way since i said so. Sounds a bit bossy isn't it? I am currently trying to recover from my fever. Thank goodness it's not that bad and i learn to take medicine when my body start to feel terribly wrong. I should have decided this a long time ago but i'm just being childish who love being pampered. Unfortunately i didn't get any attention at all from the people that i needed the most. It make me look like a pathetic girl or should i say pathetic lady. Thinking about that, it reminded me of how i spent most of my years trying to gain people's attention until at one point i keep coming in and out from the hospital. I know really well the cause of it but i just can't seem to voice it out since no one is listening. I think that's the reason why i have lack of friend. It's fine with me cause i know i can always start a new life. Maybe we should just stop talking about the past for now, right Daisy?

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

It's been a while i didn't write to you. Not that i don't want to but there seems to be problem with the internet line. For your info, the place that i'm living right now does not have 'streamyx'. It's quite annoying since it restrain all my previous activities. Now i can't even read my favourite manga or even watch my drama. Not really mine but i just love to claim it is. I have reactivate my Facebook again but i don't seem to excited to update about the things nor explain to my friends about anything. I'm sure they don't bother about it anyone. Everyone has their own life. Anyway, you're the only one that i love to share with. Though i'm here now, i don't know how long i'll be able to write to you again but i'll try my best to tell you what happen while i was away.

Welcome 2010 Letter

Dear Daisy,

How are you right now? I hope you're doing all well by now. It's a brand new year and let us both welcome 2010 together. Although i am late in welcoming it but for me it is all the same. As long as i got my resolution then i'm quite okay with everything the way it is. I'm not fond of celebrating as big as it is. I said that probably because i'm too tired to think of enjoying myself. Anyway, i'm in Kota Samarahan right now.

Letter To Daisy 1

Dear Daisy,

This would be my second letter that i wrote. You might want to call it a letter but it is just merely just a thought of mine. Since my friends don't bother about knowing what i'm doing or what i'm doing, i think it is safe for me to express all my frustration as well as happiness in this blog of mine. I am not always gloomy like you thought i would be. Anyway, right now i'm counting days. I know i haven't told you yet but i'll be moving to Kuching end of this year.

End of the Year 2009

Endless days and night,, It seems my old habit trying to eat me alive while i'm too good at it. Old habit as in i start to sleep during daytime again. I spent my nights with my never ending story or even watch anime, stare at the ceiling inside my dark room and i might even read my novels. This is why i need something new to read every week. It doesn't matter how long i take to finish it but i will always keep on reading it. Anyway, i am not going to talk why i have been gone from this blog of mine. It is not that i don't have the time or got bored with it but it seems like i got something else to occupy myself lately. I got plenty of time or even if i don't have the time i would always find a way to update my first blog ever. I don't hope that i will have a lot of friends from this blog or even someone would really read it but i guess it's my starting point. A way for me to change i guess. I'm losing my point again. Happens a lot. Don't bother. Actually i have an announcement to make. I hope someone will understand or if they don't then just bear with it for a little longer. For after this, things will get to the real me (eventually). Just pray that i don't fall off the track again. Speaking of the announcement that i want to make,,,

'I WILL BE DELETING MY PREVIOUS POST END OF THIS YEAR.'

But i'll be keeping some of my post for future review,,,I need it in certain times,,,,I guess i made myself clear after this. So don't be searching my previous post or whatsoever. My past has gone within me and i'm going to accept it no matter how hard or painful it will be after this. I'll be fine after that. I guess. Anyway, next year i'm going to start another version of my post and i guess it will be something meaningful for me. Just pray for me until then. I guess, that's all i want to say for now. Until then...