Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

How long have i been gone this time? Not to long i guess. It seems that i'm having a bad flu,coughing and fever. Which probably hold me from updating my blog. There's nothing to talk about actually. Now i'm feeling a bit better and hopefully it all comes down. Except the coughing still haven't give me any mercy or sign leaving me. At least the cold and the fever has finally come down. I'm still holding and doing my own thing. Or you could say doing my own chores. I'm all alone. Care to know why?

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

After the fever's gone, come the coughing. This is killing me. The virus spread widely and wouldn't even give me my moment of freedom. It has been couple of days now i'm down with the coughing and such. The flu suddenly attack me out of nowhere. Now, i don't really know what to do. What medicine to take, it got me confused. Once i do fall sick, i took the longest time to recover. This is not fun at all. To tell you the truth, i was supposed to post this entry earlier but due to my head, my coughing and my fever i couldn't get myself finishing what i just started. So, i'm resuming where i left off.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Well, just bits of every picture. It's only at night time since i only love the view during that time. The next time i go there maybe i'll take pictures for day time also. I had trouble uploading the pictures so i'm not in the mood of perfecting everything nor explaining it. Not feeling well at the same time. Anyway, just have fun. Do ask me if you're curious. Scroll under.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Yosh. How's everything since i left? Wait, did i mention i went off to elsewhere? Did i? Harharhar. I've gone mad. Mad as in going insane and mad as in burning up with fire. So, i can't really figure out which is which. Well, let's just talk about where the hell did i went yesterday without any notice at all. Scroll under.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Did i mention that i have Twitter? I open it years ago but didn't even bother to do anything about. Then all of sudden i got an email from the Twitter saying that my account has been banned for no reason at all. I don't even know what the heck did i do when i haven't even bother to activate that account i couldn't even remember what are my username and my password. Since i don't really care why suddenly they banned my account, i didn't take notice. Then recently, when i try to activate my account, it turns out that my account is back on. I decided to activate it then and there. So, here i am twitting to whoever or to just myself since i am not that socialize type of person. I thought it's fun but it's pretty embarrassing plus lonely to have the quite wall. Ugh. It makes me look like i don't have a friend at all. In fact, i do have but not plenty since i only keep in touch with the only people i feel comfortable with. That is why i happen to disappear a lot most of the times.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Some things just keep coming. And my heart sways from here and there when i have to make such a decision. Life could probably have gotten better if my parent decided to step in. Not only that, probably half of my problem would be solved. I wouldn't be so happy about it no matter what cause when half of the problem solve that means i have to solve about more than half problems on my own. The only thing that give me headache and heartache right now is all about the heart matter. Again. Sigh. That is all i could and i've been sighing ever since this thing creep up on me. I think i might have to be the director myself and act out something. It's just getting tougher.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

My nose is itchy. Driving me nuts. Must be the oil. That is why i hate oily food. It will give my life, hell. Well, not really. But truthfully, it's driving me insane. Thank goodness i still have my sanity. Otherwise i might have to just cut off my nose. My very own nose!!!

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm waiting for the water tank to be fill so i can take my bath and have a blast. Oh yeah!!!

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Smell, smell, na do smell. Harharharhar. It's Big Bang's parody for Secret Garden. It's freaking funny and disgusting at the same time. I've been wanting to share that parody with you but since i have to struggle so hard just to watch it again, i don't feel like sharing it with you. Bwahahahaha. Call me evil, i'm all that. But seriously, you guys should watch the parody but skip the disgusting part. You will know what i mean when you watch the parody.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

You could smack me for saying busy the everytime i disappear in the world of blog. Not that anyone bother if i'm here or not but as usual, i don't give a freaking damn about them. Do i? I only pay attention to those i care. The rest? I don't want to bother my head with all that. Yes, i have been busy for the past few days. Or maybe i don't know what else i could share with you since i do have my normal life that i refuse to share since it is the same thing. What the heck i'm trying to say here??? My sanity kind of worries me. Bwahahahahaha...

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I would like to express my condolence to those in Japan. After one thing and another. The biggest earthquake ever since 140 years ago. Some says it is 8.4, then 8.9. I'm not really sure which is the right one but all i know that is one hell of big one. Even the one that i encounter is quite big for me to handle to the point i'm sensitive to shaky ground. Until now, that is. Now this, in Japan not only that, tsunami seems to be the biggest nightmare of all. It wipe out the entire things that's on its way. No one can stop it. I watch the TV and saw how it wiped out the entire thing. I wonder if the people living there can actually survive after the tsunami. I know they can survive the earthquake but what about tsunami. Let's just hope that it is not that horrific. The Almighty Allah, is angry. The time is coming near.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Nope, it's not going to end. It seems the flu caught me. Ugh. Not like i was wearing thin clothe and such. This is a nuisance indeed. I keep on sneezing. The moment i open my eye, i start to sneeze or my nose itching to sneeze. Like right now. So not cool at all. I wouldn't say the lack of sleep or tired become my reason to be sneezing and sorts cause with my mom here, i think most of my job have been done by my mom. Not that i'm slacking but my mom is a super woman indeed. She only let me sleep with my nephews a little bit longer. My nephews will only wake up late if i'm still at their side. So, at the same time i'm doing my mom a favor. Argh, i can't really concentrate what i'm saying or typing. Pardon me for all the errors that i'm making, the grammars and all sort. (as if all this time my grammar is that good,pfftt.) Anyway, i just want to share something. Hop on.(if there is a place to hop on)

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I've been sneezing since i woke up. Don't know what it means. Either the flu caught me or the weather starts to give some sort of signal to my body claiming that the air is not fresh anymore and i should return to a cleaner air. Well, at least it's a bit clean. No, i don't want to take medicine yet. I'm not taking any. Otherwise i'll be facing another trouble if i take it. Which will be the end of everything. Argh. This is killing me. It's itching to sneeze again.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm trying to get myself out of the misery feeling that i feel right now. I don't want to keep on writing about the uneven emotional state that i'm in. So, i'm trying my best here to do whatever i can not to talk about whatever that makes me sad.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Late at night. Listening to a song ever so sentimental. Sometimes it reminds me those days.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

My hand work just fine. I thought i might be suffering from a great pain due to the heaviness that i've been carrying for the past few hours. That would be the last time that i'm bringing my nephews out and carry them. It hurt. You can curse me all you want but i do have my limit. It is not that i want to go on shopping and all the sort but carrying my nephew who weighs i don't know how much tires me out. Not only me. Even my brother said that my nephew is heavy as well and he can't stand holding onto him forever like i did. You have got to be kidding me. Besides, i'm wearing my wedges. I didn't expect that i'll be one who's carrying him. Then of course, i should have known better. I was not suppose to go out today. I told my mom that but as usual she always change her mind at the last minute. She force me to wake up and go with them. Telling me that i would regret and this is the only time that i'll be going out. Have i heard it correctly? Well, see who's regretting it now? Even my mom is speechless. I blurt out everything cause i'm ticked off by the fact that i have to handle all of this. Why me? I kept on asking why me. Sometimes i want to blame onto fate but it would be sinful if i do such a thing. Ugh. In the end i put all the blame on me. For refusing to further my studies, refusing to work with government site and for keep on holding onto my dream and believe it just like i had kept for so long. Or is it because of my self idiocy that i kept on smiling although i felt like i want to kiss someone in the face. This whole thing is annoying.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Updated my Cherish's blog. I always update it when i have the time. It seems my talent is lacking due to my limited edition vocabulary. I have the word in my head but i refuse to use it somehow. Ugh. Actually i've finished updating it ages ago but i was drawn to BIG BANG's song that i keep hearing and watching the MV along with their performance again and again. If you asked me if i got bored of it i'll have to say NO. It's Big Bang after all. There's no reason for me to get bored over it. I learn their choreography as well. Although i'm unable to follow every part but at least i manage to master my favourite part of all. The stomping and the hand thing. I just love dancing to that part. Singing it will be a problem though since i only can say a few bits of Korean. But if they sing in Japanese, i might have a chance since my Japanese are much better than Korean. Did i mention that i know few language? Other than my own language as well as English, i also know some other language. It's just that i didn't bother to talk about it. People would say i'm big headed and such. They bores me.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Somehow my leg is killing me. I don't know why it hurt. The only thing i can do for now is warmed up my leg so it won't pain me. But seriously, it's killing me. No, my mom didn't know. Not that i don't want to tell but there's not really much that she can do. I'm the one who's in charge massaging my mom and my sisters. So when it comes to my own, i'm hopeless. Darn it. It's hurting again. Besides eating pain killer and all, i don't know what else to do with this leg of mine. I really do need to take care of myself. It is a wonder when i'll do just that. I worried over trivial matters and now this. Ugh. I just don't know how to stop.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Hungry. I'm eating egg sandwich right now. This is my dinner. 11.20 pm I had egg sandwich for dinner. How cool is that. Something is troubling me at the moment and which is the reason i bought Pepsi and eat the whole time. I wish i could tell you what bothers me but i don't even know what is. But i do know the source. I'm worried about my friend. I don't know. I could ask but i want her to calm herself first. All i could do is wait and give everything i can. At the moment. It's kind of quite. There's something else keep pestering me today. To the point that my nephews fear me. I guess i'm giving another bad aura around me. Out of nowhere, they listen to me no matter what i say. I was surprise. Daisy, the wheels keep on turning. Just keep on turning. Until then Daisy

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

The sound of piano next door really calms me. How i wish to learn piano one day. No matter how old i am or how late i am, i still want to learn to play piano. I could ask the neighbour next door to teach me but they have dog. It's a big dog. Don't know what type of breed. But it's freaking big. The dog who only listen to its owner. It's a good dog but for strangers its scary. I guess i'll have to find another way to learn how to play piano. The sound is really soothing. Even if the melody that i never heard of, hearing it live is really nice. One day, i would love to play La Campanella on piano. It would be nice. One day.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

My neck hurt. This is the reason why i don't like sleeping during day time. (Gosh, did i just said that? I must be getting myself a fever.) But seriously, i don't know why lately i don't feel like taking a nap although i lack of sleep. But since my nephew won't sleep without me sleeping next to him or lay down, he won't sleep. So in the end i had to lay down and sleep. It is rather a tiring thing to do. Well for me. I guess sleeping is not something that i anticipated. What i really need is some peace and quite. You could say i'm missing my old life back. My dull, boring life. Full of books around me, pen and jotted down some crazy thinking. Not only that, i pampered myself with being ever so lonely and envy. I don't know where's the fun behind all that but i do miss that part of my life. In the end of my very own story, i still struggle keeping myself alive in front of the eyes of my own family. My friends? Well, they know i exist and acknowledge that. That is why i don't really bother to struggle that far.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Life has been great and good to me lately. Been treating so well that i've been rewarded for my good deed. Bwahahahaha. I just love to praise myself lately. But seriously, i feel good.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm pissed off!!!