Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm tired!!! Lack of sleep is one thing than the weather is not helping me no matter what. Aigoo. I'm so dead. This will go on for two weeks. My mind is prepare but my body can't keep up. I need to do something about it. But i'll work hard and just keep on working. 

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

First, i would like to wish Happy Birthday to my friend. May she have a wonderful year and hopefully it will be a blast. I can't say more since i don't know what to say. Why? Probably i can't figure out what's next. I do have a blurry head.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm counting hours. Starting from tomorrow. Why? Because my mom and my sis are coming. Oh yeah!!! But at the same time nothing change. My schedule and my chores just keep on coming. They're going to stay with me while my sister and my brother in law go for their 'Umrah'. Two whole weeks. I'll be walking early in the morning sending my nephew to his preschool. They did left their car and i do have a license but it has been nearly,,,,ermm... I think a year or so i didn't get back on the wheel. Ever since i finish all that test and such. I know how but i am not confident about parking. I know how to drive but i have a problem estimating the parking area. It's quite squash and i'll lose my confident. My sister didn't have the time to teach me. If not, i'll probably be A-ok for now. But i guess it's better if i walk since i love walking rather than driving.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

My weekend is a disaster for me. Why??? I can't sleep late and i can't wake up late because my sister got a whatever it is for two whole days and thankfully it's only half but still i felt like this is the end of my leisure time. I can't believe all this. I can't believe i put up with this. And i could still smile??? Hold on. Who says i could still smile? I've been frowning early in the morning and showing my lionesses side to my nephew for waking up way too early and i still haven't done with the laundry and the restoring. I know who's the culprit that's why i'm pissed off. It's the brother who wake up the little one and then go down together and making the little one cry. That's why i'm pissed. I know the brother's style and which is probably the reason why i can guess how he thinks. How he does thing behind my back while i was busying inside the kitchen and the main reason why he cannot lie to me. If he does disrespect and lie to his parents or someone older than him, he sure gets hell from me. I am being tough on him. And i know some of you disagree with my way. But the way i see it, he's more mature than he looks that's why i have to be tough than the usual one. Kids nowadays they are being way too pampered while saying that they're still little kids and of course they can become naughty and such. Well, if you spend your time with them i would want to hear if you can say that again. Wondering why???? Scroll over.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Yes, i'm here. Here as in everyone's heart. Bwahahahahaha. Now that is so lame. I can't believe i just said that. Smack me in the head if this keeps on coming. I dare you!!!(scowling)

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I have a boyfriend!!! YAY!!!

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Somehow, i can't wait forever. In the end i'm dating my imaginary 'The One'. I see him in my dream but i can't see his face. I wish he's someone i know but i really don't know who the heck is that. Are you asking do i believe that he would my future husband? I would only say i believe in so many things but when it comes to what the heart and my dream future, i would not put high hopes in it. It seems i'm not the only person dating with my imaginary 'The One'. Cause my nakama, the one who live in Sabah, seems to be doing just that also. Everytime we did get in touch with each other, we would be in the same situation and giving and asking question and answers. It's pretty funny. I wonder if we will get married at the same time. That would be absurd. But at the same time, we both won't believe that it is happening. I mean, for sure i'll be having a hard time believing in it. Let's just wait and see shall we?

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm leaving you with two songs. For tonight, tune in to my dream. Bwahahahaha. Okey, that laugh ruin the moment. 

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

My eyesight is getting worse. Now i need a spec when typing out the things in front of me. I must have ruined it badly. The consequences of reading and writing in the dark. It has been a while i've been wanting the desk lamp for my own room but i never manage to get since i found it at the wrong time and clearly at the wrong place. I didn't expect it to be RM200+. I must be nuts. There's a tale to that. Since it has been a while since i last went shopping for something like that, i seem to forgot where exactly the suitable place to get that kind of stuff. I need to start walking again. As in going out of the house. But i've done that, only to and fro the basketball court or night market. That is all.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm having headache. Probably because i didn't drink any water although i'm damn thirsty at that time. Anyway, i'm having fun. My decision to stay at home finally paid off. Although it might look rude to others but having to play basketball after such a long time is very refreshing indeed. Why i said rude? Probably because i turned down the invitation going to my foster brother's house. That's why. I don't have any good excuse for refusing but i just don't feel like going. Not only that, i just want to be away from the negative aura. I'm making things complicated for both sides. Cause i don't give any more chances nor i bother to care. Zippppp.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm still feeling a bit upset. It seems i can't get over it. But i know i can heal anytime now. I'm quite confident since i can feel that the whole upset thing is finally letting me go. Truthfully, i just saw my favourite Korean group, Big Bang on a talk show and it entertains me a bit. It only works for Big Bang and other groups, i don't think i can say the same thing confidently. I've told you why i like them. They're unique in every way and if they could and i know they will, they'll be able to conquer the world of music if they keep the whole family together. That's the whole key.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

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Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Miss me for a day? I was tired. Too tired to update anything. If you're wondering what made me tired? Just scroll under.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Happy birthday to you, 

Happy birthday to you,

Happy birthday dear mommy,

Happy birthday to you.....

Love, Your 4th Daughter.

Okey, that is so strange. Bwahahaha. But i did wish her happy birthday last night and early in the morning. Too bad i'm not there. If not, maybe i'll be celebrating with her. And too bad my paycheck is not out yet. But it can wait. I still have a long way to go. What i meant is, me, being here is and so on. I wonder if you get what i mean. If it doesn't make any sense probably i'm having a hard time to extract the true meaning of it from my head. It's a very complicated situation 'up there'. It move and process so many things at the same time while trying to focus whatever it is i'm trying to say. Geh. I really do wonder why i had the nerve to open a blog when i'm unable to say something or share something as simple as this. Blast it. Well, anyway. Since i wasn't there by my mom's side, i make a promise myself to get my mom a birthday present. Just something that i can afford. Although the present would be months too late, but at least i kept my words. I always do no matter how long it takes. But the promises that i make between me and my ex-boyfriend, i can never keep it. Cause either none bothers about it any longer or it has been terminate with hate or the mouth itself. But between friends or family, i will always keep it no matter how long it take. That is for sure. *shing. I'm trying to smile while showing my uneven teeth and the not attractive smile. Ugh.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

This could not be happening. I wish it was a dream but if it was a dream then it will be the nightmare of all.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I was planning to write a story using Malay language but then i have a weakness there. I'm not really good in it. That's the same as English. I write in English because i won't have to spoil Malay language and it's fine if i spoil the English part. For me, Malay language is something precious and it should not be taken lightly. That is what i think. Although i'm dying to write in Malay and pour my idea out but i'm too scared that i'll ruin the Malay language that i respect so much. Some probably think that i am such a show off for writing and speaking English and if i'm not speaking English i'll be speaking the Sarawak's Malay language. There's a different. So, it's a bit hard for me to express my thoughts in Malay since i only have limited vocabulary the same as when i'm writing or speaking in English. I still need my dictionary to blurt out something new and use it in every single thing that i'm doing. But with Malay, i don't know why but i tend to just stop and read it from a novel. I wonder if you do get what i mean by that. Ugh. This is quite something that's hard to explain. I better stopped here before i make you all went nuts with my freaking explanation.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Finally i'm back. Although i'm still angry because they force me to go with them but i'm more upset because they behave like that. I don't like it when this is what i get for putting up against them. I really don't. Pardon me for wanting to be treat fairly but i just want to let them know that i also do have what you call it a feeling. I can't help it can i? Ugh. I shouldn't have let it show. It was not a big deal but i'm dead tired. Don't know why and i'm trying to save up my money and my own head. Sometimes i need to use my head and that is rather tiring. So, do give me a break. I really need my sleep and a bit of peace. Owh, darn it. I shouldn't be complaining. I try so hard not to but i am just a mere human. I'm whining here and there. Gosh, i should stop doing that.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

It seems my nightmare has finally come. I can't convince my sister no matter what. It seems like i'll be going off to her in laws place. Gosh, i hate this. Why can't they just let me stay here. Yes, i know its dangerous and such but in my head i still think that i'm going to be okay. I don't know why i'm this confident although the world is not the same as before where nowadays human turn into devil itself. They become a demon behind that very human face. I know that but i need my privacy. My head hurt just thinking that i have to force myself on this. Why? Why? I keep on asking just how many more sacrifice that i need to make before the whole thing settle. Finally i blurt out that very question in my head. I don't want them to think me being ungrateful and such but seriously, i do want my own freedom. It's suffocating. To tell the truth, i'm a private person and it's kind of hard for me to settle myself in this chaotic atmosphere. I have to step out of my comfort zone and just trying to survive besides trying to settle down. But like the historical romance novel that i never get bored, " Sheep settles in. But not me." Okay, i change it a bit. It was suppose to be " Sheep settles in but not wife". That is the very reason why i change it. Please don't ask me why is it so hard for me to settle in such places and so on. I have a thousand answer to go with that. So which one do you prefer to hear? The one reason that i'm willing to tell is i don't want people to know my secret. That is one of them. It's a secret and my *****. It hurt. This whole thing hurt. It really does.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Baby Goodnight... I can't help but watch the MV over and over again. Nose bleeds. Although it's a bit 'suggestive' to my eye but i still can't help to watch it over and over again. I love that song. It melts my heart. Imagine that someone special sing that song or any kind of song so softly through my ear. Maybe i'll fall head over heels in love with that man. I can't believe i just said that. But i do wonder what will happen if my wishes were true. Will i be smiling ever so happily in my sleep or will i kick and slap him in the face. I do have multiple personalities. It does depend on my mood. I should get myself a mood ring before anyone trying to do anything to me. That's to warn them somehow. A chance to flee and a chance to say what is appropriate or the truth itself. Right now i'm feeling all fluttering as i keep hearing their unique voice. Dies of happiness. Bwahahahaha. Unbelievable. Somebody should slap me in the face for going to far with my romantic imagination. I dare you to slap cause i'll slap even harder, you freak!!!