Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm home alone right now. Not really alone but i'll be alone during daytime. My mom and my lil sis is not here. They went to KL to visit my other sister there and also my father. Now, i'm with my other sisters. Tomorrow they'll be with me but then for the next day they will be busy with their own work. I'm fine that way. I can adapt to any kind of situation as long as i have money and food. At least one of them i can confidently say that i have it in my hands. Anyway, pray for my safety during my lonely days.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I feel life is challenging me again. Now, i'm all stressed out and i really don't know where to turn to. I have this huge regret coming and gaining my attention. Now my nights are not quite anymore nor peaceful but full of things, regret and problems that i can't solve alone.Somehow, i really need someone right now. I'm still thinking about my future. The decision i made, i haven't voice it out yet. Talking about finding the right time, i wonder what will happen then. 

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I keep on sleeping late. I know it's not good for my health but i really can't help it this time. A lot of things have been bothering me and it's hard for to handle it all at once. So i ignore the not so important (although it is) things and keep on solving my next problem. Right now, i'm in another dilemma. I wonder when will it end. Anyway, my mom and my sis had a talk with me unofficially. My sis asked me where i'm heading after i take the course and so on. I keep on asking myself the same thing also but i'm convince that i want to open up my business. Yes, i know it sounds impossible to go all through that without anything in hand. So i decided that i'll start my journey sometime this year. Next month if possible. I hope i can cope with it and gain my confidence back. I have to get out from this comfort zone. It's time for me to leave and i shall leave without looking back. Not this time and i'll stay strong after this. So dear Daisy, lend me your shoulder if you have to. Lend me your strength and i will keep on going. I guess that's all i can tell you for now. Sorry for the short update but i'll be back. Until then.

'REMEMBERING DAISY'

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

Do you know what day is today? I know it's Sunday but that's not what i meant. It's the day where the Chinese celebrate their day. I forgot already why they celebrate it. Pardon me. I didn't mean to be rude but i know i heard about it a thousand times already but this head of mine can't really keep such information for a long time. But i do know something. They play the fireworks to scare the monster away and tonight was really the brightest and the most chaotic night that i've ever had. I LOVE IT. I get excited and emotionally touched by the fireworks. It's a music to my ear and the light of my life. Just like the firework, that's how i lead my life. I don't want to say more about that but i hope one day i can watch firework on any special occasion that i'm going to celebrate. It would be great if i could have it on my birthday. It's just a wish. I just have to wait for another 10 years for that. I hope the government won't lock me up because i wish for such a thing.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm quite tired today. Cleaning the house entire house really took part of my energy. I get tired easily right now and not to mention my wrists start to hurt again. I had a feeling i'm going to write something emotionally today. It's not because what i had been trough was hell. It's just that i read the one piece manga just now and it really make me sad to the point it distracted whatever been going on inside me. I can't believe Ace is dead. i shouldn't have continue reading it but i was just too curious to ignore the whole thing. Yes, Ace is dead in the arm of his beloved brother. It's heartbreaking and i wish i wouldn't take it too seriously. I can't believe i'm this sensitive. I just have to put away all that behind me since i know what will happen if i keep on thinking about his death.

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm a bit busy lately. Today i just finish preparing the curry puffs that my auntie want. She want 30 of it and not too spicy. I just finish making it half cooked. Then by night i helped my mom baking the 'bingka cheese'. Don't know what's it call in English but i hope you understand it. It was quite tiring but i had fun with it. The problem is i need to fix my temper. I tend to get angry easily when i'm dead tired. Thankfully i manage to control myself but i think i need to change that. It's a bad habit. Don't you think so?

Letter to Daisy

Dear Daisy,

I'm trying my best in everything i do right now. That includes trying to keep you updated. Besides that, i'm trying my best to bake a cake today. I want to start practicing so i get the right method or maybe gain something from all this. I hope one day i can bake some from you although people will keep on asking me about you. I'm tired of answering it and that is the only reason i'm being mean. Forget about that.

Dear Daisy,

How long has it been now? I know i haven't update anything lately but i'm trying my hardest to do something that can make you proud. There have been question about you again Daisy. I don't know if i can answer it yet but i'm hoping one day i might even tell what Daisy really meant for me. Maybe you're just my imaginary friend that i created in my solitary world. I think having you will keep me alive and know that i am not alone. But i know you are here somewhere. Anyway Daisy, i have great update that i want to share with you. It seems this time the whole waiting thing make me feel worth it.